Feeling like Orpheus

Okay am back and feeling better than my last blog, i think my writers block has gone and i am feeling far more inspired than i did before, the music that i am producing is starting to come think and fast, and it sounds great so far....

I have taken two previous songs i was working on and mixed them up a bit and now have a new lease of life, also i have written some new ideas and in the middle of arrangements and producing the sound quality that i am going for, hopefully this will be influenced by the likes of Amon Tobin and the final product will be something huge and powerful, don't get me wrong though i am far away from any completion and there is a lot more to come and make, i decided this is my sculpture record, chipping away till it feels right to exhibit. So please bare with me!

I have been on my travels again and now in a new place and starting to feel more settled i am still looking for musicians who would like to get involved even if it means using the Internet to make and produce music, its a tool my friends lets use them!

Also to let you know i am now on a netlabel and hopefully the next release will be on that label and soon check the link :http://neuroplasticrecords.com/

EVOLVE OR DIE !

Inspiration

Well for those that bother or actually give a shit, this is a note/blog for inspiration and hope, i am struggling with being inspired and finishing music, and actually just being happy with what am producing, but this goes far beyond just music, as art represents life this is my life and this is my struggle, being inspired not only to make music but also to make life, as everything is pretty much dead until life is given too things, for me right now death is at my door and i can't find life, i don't hear anything good anymore, music is pretty much dead too me, especially in the local scene where its full of rich kids wanting to be famous, or just full of lifeless rock statues who fall into the blurs or cliche and pretty much give you the same old crap, i find the object of creativity and the ideals of being rich the culprit for what is happening today, don't believe the hype and seek the artist because its they who deliver, this is not about playing the guitar its about who gives themselves to art!

The power of music

Okay this is a shortish blog about something that i found amazing and yet inspiring to myself recently well more than recently i have been ill, i have had respiratory problems because of the cold flats i live in plus the mold on walls, i have taken steroids and antibiotics etc and now on inhalers and all that, i recently had a lung function test and the tests came back normal and in some cases above average, due to the singing exercises i have done over the years etc, goes to show building up my muscles and lung function through singing as helped me, and not let my body turn to mush!

Long live singing and music its helped me more times than i can ever think off

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

A Creative peak is around the corner

Okay so not much has been released except for Christmas songs and cover versions and old material, well don't be alarmed i haven't gone cabaret on your ass am not a sell out like most of the contentious people out there or give us the same old drivel!

I am starting a new and the 1st thing to come hopefully soon when i finish the vocals is 4 new collaborations so please stay tuned as the music that i have been given is killer! And i can't wait to add my parts to these amazing musical moments :)

2nd On my list is getting back to my new work, i say work as the idea of selling an Album or EP sounds ridiculous to me, sometimes, especially when no one buys your last album, plus not being represented is difficult as it is, and as no one takes notice of anything i do the idea of me saying am following up an album just sounds funny to me!

Anyway the new tracks are coming along at a slow pace i know but they are coming, the music is a complete 180 directional turn of the last album and style, here the music breaths in a different genre and mood to the last out pourings that i gave you, here new beats and sounds and instruments fit together like a Dali Painting, soon i will add words poems thoughts to these sounds and hopefully songs will be born!!

My other offerings cannot be said yet so thats all your getting.... Though i have thought about making a film?

Anyway its a new year and a new start so stay tuned and tell your friends

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Something New something borrowed something blue

Okay quick update for all you blog fans i know who you are :)

Well the new project for The Calm Project has begun, i have been collecting sounds and noises for a month now and been writing little motifs to work on, the ideas have only just been coming together and there are a lot of beginnings, lets hope they reach to the end, as the sound and concept is a new direction and far from Ghost Tapes Mood and Sound....

I have asked for people to come play who might play something different from guitars bass and drums, i am looking for new textures and new sounds, so the weirder the better is all i will say right now, so anything from Cello, to spoons will be cool in my books!

I am also thinking of trying some new vocal directions as i would like to perform as a trumpet or flute rather than a singer, words are getting in the way right now and i feel i want to discover something new within myself!

I am always open to new ideas and new music so if you think there is something i should listen too or read or watch then please let me know :)

If you haven't read in my previous blog i have been ill, and am waiting to work on some new music and ideas soon for some amazing musician friends of mine, i am hoping to start work on these soon and have them at least done before Christmas, i just can't afford to make myself ill again so fingers crossed for that!

As for Ghost Tape album download, it seems it reached a small audience and didn't move from there, i will still hopefully be gigging the Ghost Tape material, i still think it has a lot of development in terms of life after the record, but as i don't get offered gigs and have to put my own on, according to a certain person LIverpool music scene for alternative acts is thriving, i say your a fucking joke! So then next gig, who knows? Because i certainly don't!!!!

I would like to end with a small bid to either Ninja Tune or Warp, or any electronic label, come listen and give me some money, "there my first act of weakness" lol

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Sick

Hello people that care and people that don't....

This is just a frustrated blog of being ill and being a musician, well i seem to have developed a virus from a cold i had, and its still not gone, it doesn't help being cold and living in a cold flat, or being poor! The breathless gasps of air that i try to inhale seem to disappear and tease me, into wanting to actually breath!!

I find it so frustrating that i can't do much or sing or even exercise, its becoming such a pain in the arse right now :(

I want to make music and sing on tracks but i am getting know where fast, and it feels like i am not recovering one bit, this is pissing me off loads, and i feel like stopping for a long time!

Art in the face of disgust

Okay to the small number of people who read my blog i thank you and love your respect and passion for The Calm Project...

Well Ghost Tape was released last month and a few people bought it who i love and respect, some family well one, and the others musician friends i met online, who i respect and love, they are true artists and musicians who appreciate new music and support others, this is now becoming a rare thing especially in this day and age, i have felt zero support else where between people i know, people i have helped along the way, and people who i consider friends! This hurt me more than you will ever know, and for that i can never forgive them...

To sum it all up through out my life i have been to other peoples gigs supported their music and helped as much as i can this would often include traveling for other an hour to watch and be there for them, who people i have given my musical mind as well as instruments to borrow and been a friend, ever since that, i though it would be reciprocated back, oh how i was wrong on many fucking levels!!!!

On a personal level i have maybe not been around as much these days and thats down to being broke and having no money, and it seems for me that is not enough or even forgiven, i have never felt so let down by people in all my life, and it gets me thinking has this always been the case... Because right now i feel completely alienated by "friends" and i find this so fucking sad especially when they preach friendship and love, i have felt nothing in anyways these emotions given to me, i feel numb by this!!!!!

I am not asking everyone to buy my album because i know choice and taste will collide and people will not want to own my music that is beyond fine, what i ask for is respect for me as a musician as an artists but most of all a person, for me and all the time and effort i have given to many people in return i have felt nothing, for me this is sad and very upsetting to me, as i only ask for friendship and nothing else!

The other thing is i am going to start work on new music, i am already collecting found sounds and later will hopefully be working with others on ideas and music, and to some point will be pulling all the ties together to make some new music, this project is in motion and will hopefully start to come together next year!

I am starting to wonder will this get any support as much as my last release?

I don't fucking know anymore... I always say Evolve or Die, but this is clearly not happening anymore... either way

EVOLVE OR DIE

E