Something New something borrowed something blue

Okay quick update for all you blog fans i know who you are :)

Well the new project for The Calm Project has begun, i have been collecting sounds and noises for a month now and been writing little motifs to work on, the ideas have only just been coming together and there are a lot of beginnings, lets hope they reach to the end, as the sound and concept is a new direction and far from Ghost Tapes Mood and Sound....

I have asked for people to come play who might play something different from guitars bass and drums, i am looking for new textures and new sounds, so the weirder the better is all i will say right now, so anything from Cello, to spoons will be cool in my books!

I am also thinking of trying some new vocal directions as i would like to perform as a trumpet or flute rather than a singer, words are getting in the way right now and i feel i want to discover something new within myself!

I am always open to new ideas and new music so if you think there is something i should listen too or read or watch then please let me know :)

If you haven't read in my previous blog i have been ill, and am waiting to work on some new music and ideas soon for some amazing musician friends of mine, i am hoping to start work on these soon and have them at least done before Christmas, i just can't afford to make myself ill again so fingers crossed for that!

As for Ghost Tape album download, it seems it reached a small audience and didn't move from there, i will still hopefully be gigging the Ghost Tape material, i still think it has a lot of development in terms of life after the record, but as i don't get offered gigs and have to put my own on, according to a certain person LIverpool music scene for alternative acts is thriving, i say your a fucking joke! So then next gig, who knows? Because i certainly don't!!!!

I would like to end with a small bid to either Ninja Tune or Warp, or any electronic label, come listen and give me some money, "there my first act of weakness" lol

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Sick

Hello people that care and people that don't....

This is just a frustrated blog of being ill and being a musician, well i seem to have developed a virus from a cold i had, and its still not gone, it doesn't help being cold and living in a cold flat, or being poor! The breathless gasps of air that i try to inhale seem to disappear and tease me, into wanting to actually breath!!

I find it so frustrating that i can't do much or sing or even exercise, its becoming such a pain in the arse right now :(

I want to make music and sing on tracks but i am getting know where fast, and it feels like i am not recovering one bit, this is pissing me off loads, and i feel like stopping for a long time!

Art in the face of disgust

Okay to the small number of people who read my blog i thank you and love your respect and passion for The Calm Project...

Well Ghost Tape was released last month and a few people bought it who i love and respect, some family well one, and the others musician friends i met online, who i respect and love, they are true artists and musicians who appreciate new music and support others, this is now becoming a rare thing especially in this day and age, i have felt zero support else where between people i know, people i have helped along the way, and people who i consider friends! This hurt me more than you will ever know, and for that i can never forgive them...

To sum it all up through out my life i have been to other peoples gigs supported their music and helped as much as i can this would often include traveling for other an hour to watch and be there for them, who people i have given my musical mind as well as instruments to borrow and been a friend, ever since that, i though it would be reciprocated back, oh how i was wrong on many fucking levels!!!!

On a personal level i have maybe not been around as much these days and thats down to being broke and having no money, and it seems for me that is not enough or even forgiven, i have never felt so let down by people in all my life, and it gets me thinking has this always been the case... Because right now i feel completely alienated by "friends" and i find this so fucking sad especially when they preach friendship and love, i have felt nothing in anyways these emotions given to me, i feel numb by this!!!!!

I am not asking everyone to buy my album because i know choice and taste will collide and people will not want to own my music that is beyond fine, what i ask for is respect for me as a musician as an artists but most of all a person, for me and all the time and effort i have given to many people in return i have felt nothing, for me this is sad and very upsetting to me, as i only ask for friendship and nothing else!

The other thing is i am going to start work on new music, i am already collecting found sounds and later will hopefully be working with others on ideas and music, and to some point will be pulling all the ties together to make some new music, this project is in motion and will hopefully start to come together next year!

I am starting to wonder will this get any support as much as my last release?

I don't fucking know anymore... I always say Evolve or Die, but this is clearly not happening anymore... either way

EVOLVE OR DIE

E