Something New something borrowed something blue

Okay quick update for all you blog fans i know who you are :)

Well the new project for The Calm Project has begun, i have been collecting sounds and noises for a month now and been writing little motifs to work on, the ideas have only just been coming together and there are a lot of beginnings, lets hope they reach to the end, as the sound and concept is a new direction and far from Ghost Tapes Mood and Sound....

I have asked for people to come play who might play something different from guitars bass and drums, i am looking for new textures and new sounds, so the weirder the better is all i will say right now, so anything from Cello, to spoons will be cool in my books!

I am also thinking of trying some new vocal directions as i would like to perform as a trumpet or flute rather than a singer, words are getting in the way right now and i feel i want to discover something new within myself!

I am always open to new ideas and new music so if you think there is something i should listen too or read or watch then please let me know :)

If you haven't read in my previous blog i have been ill, and am waiting to work on some new music and ideas soon for some amazing musician friends of mine, i am hoping to start work on these soon and have them at least done before Christmas, i just can't afford to make myself ill again so fingers crossed for that!

As for Ghost Tape album download, it seems it reached a small audience and didn't move from there, i will still hopefully be gigging the Ghost Tape material, i still think it has a lot of development in terms of life after the record, but as i don't get offered gigs and have to put my own on, according to a certain person LIverpool music scene for alternative acts is thriving, i say your a fucking joke! So then next gig, who knows? Because i certainly don't!!!!

I would like to end with a small bid to either Ninja Tune or Warp, or any electronic label, come listen and give me some money, "there my first act of weakness" lol

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Sick

Hello people that care and people that don't....

This is just a frustrated blog of being ill and being a musician, well i seem to have developed a virus from a cold i had, and its still not gone, it doesn't help being cold and living in a cold flat, or being poor! The breathless gasps of air that i try to inhale seem to disappear and tease me, into wanting to actually breath!!

I find it so frustrating that i can't do much or sing or even exercise, its becoming such a pain in the arse right now :(

I want to make music and sing on tracks but i am getting know where fast, and it feels like i am not recovering one bit, this is pissing me off loads, and i feel like stopping for a long time!

Art in the face of disgust

Okay to the small number of people who read my blog i thank you and love your respect and passion for The Calm Project...

Well Ghost Tape was released last month and a few people bought it who i love and respect, some family well one, and the others musician friends i met online, who i respect and love, they are true artists and musicians who appreciate new music and support others, this is now becoming a rare thing especially in this day and age, i have felt zero support else where between people i know, people i have helped along the way, and people who i consider friends! This hurt me more than you will ever know, and for that i can never forgive them...

To sum it all up through out my life i have been to other peoples gigs supported their music and helped as much as i can this would often include traveling for other an hour to watch and be there for them, who people i have given my musical mind as well as instruments to borrow and been a friend, ever since that, i though it would be reciprocated back, oh how i was wrong on many fucking levels!!!!

On a personal level i have maybe not been around as much these days and thats down to being broke and having no money, and it seems for me that is not enough or even forgiven, i have never felt so let down by people in all my life, and it gets me thinking has this always been the case... Because right now i feel completely alienated by "friends" and i find this so fucking sad especially when they preach friendship and love, i have felt nothing in anyways these emotions given to me, i feel numb by this!!!!!

I am not asking everyone to buy my album because i know choice and taste will collide and people will not want to own my music that is beyond fine, what i ask for is respect for me as a musician as an artists but most of all a person, for me and all the time and effort i have given to many people in return i have felt nothing, for me this is sad and very upsetting to me, as i only ask for friendship and nothing else!

The other thing is i am going to start work on new music, i am already collecting found sounds and later will hopefully be working with others on ideas and music, and to some point will be pulling all the ties together to make some new music, this project is in motion and will hopefully start to come together next year!

I am starting to wonder will this get any support as much as my last release?

I don't fucking know anymore... I always say Evolve or Die, but this is clearly not happening anymore... either way

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

BandCamp and No clues

Hello people of the interweb world its another blog by yours truly E...

Well this week was the release of Ghost Tape being sold on the genius platform that is BandCamp, I have put the album out and had some response not a massive but people have taken notice, for the people who bought it thank you:

Lucy Dann

Jasmine Eden

John Pearson

& Guido Mr Loalue :)

So if your math is like mind you will be proud to know that its 4 sales and counting will maybe not counting but 4 sales altogether so far!!!!!!

What can i say? i am stunned it did sell and i love and thank the people who bought it, it means so much you would not believe, its not being in a humble state, but a state of being so happy that i can build my confidence in people wanting to listen to my music, not going down the sentimental route but it means more than you can ever think!

Basically in my musical past, i have been over looked for being in bands, because probably not good enough for peoples egos, i never get mentioned from friends and they probably think my music isn't that great either in fact i know,and because am not playing guitar on stage, its hard to get through to people who don't understand different music, but it's what i use and do is just a different medium, because am not playing a guitar solo or playing drums on stage doesn't make me less of a musician, i know people think this, and this is why i find it difficult to communicate the music i love and want to produce!

To be loved by thousands is probably a pipe dream for me, because being loved for what i do seems to be a major struggle now, there is really only a handful of people who appreciate what i do and that's because they are open enough to listen and most important hear what i am creating, this is where most people turn off!

I think this is all comes down to popularity maybe that's why its called popular music (dumb response i know), but most cases its just generic bullshit that has no soul and is made for financial gain, this is where i turn off, music is not a competition to be won and not a popularity contest either, music is at the end of the day an art form, this is how i express myself and how i want to push myself too, the easy option is not my goal we can all learn Mustang Sally and play to dumb drunk fucks, that's a given but to actually push yourself and your creative mind to make something infinite that can stand the test of time or at least until you die! Now that's where i want to be, don't vote for me to win a competition but listen for a brief moment on something i have made, that's all i ask, being a musician and loving music is where i am in life, not playing at battle of the bands or how many people can LIKE my Facebook page, i Love music and want to express myself and that's what i do, the ironic thing is about this post is no one will read it, so that just establishes my point entirely!

Stay tuned people for the next blog which i will tell you all about my 2nd gig at Binary Jam, it should be a good one, and a small plug for the album by here if your interested :

http://thecalmproject.bandcamp.com/album/ghost-tape

Remember people Evolve or Die

E

Circuits

Hello fellow human alien deep sea dwelling people from another world, its Blog time again :)

Okay since my last blog and only 2 nights ago The Calm Project Played its first gig for more than a year now, it was good, obviously i can think of ways to improve it but i don't have the technology for what i am trying to do!

The Songs i played live were:

Leave only Footprints

Swimming in Winter

Ghosts

Save-Me

I really enjoyed being back in the thick of it and can't wait for my next gig which will be happening on the 22nd October, i will be playing 2 new songs on the night and will be up for playing and performing some more, good times were had!

The Night was also a first for Circuits Music Night a alternative music night where all sorts of music can be played under one roof, gone are the days of just bands being bands playing band music! On the bill were Gilda Bliss, Hot Hail, TBK and myself of course! And it was a successful night considering all what happened and was running up to the gig!

So what's next for The Calm Project, well to actually get around to releasing Ghost Tape, its been way too long, i am hoping this monday 10th October will be released, just need to sort out artwork and be happy with the image and what i am trying to achieve with my music and my visual side, i even on the gig tried a new look which you can see in the picture and quite like the idea of looking different on stage....

Also did 2 amazing Collaborations One with LWO Called Blood Red River, and the 2nd was a work with Autumna Called Tide Again, i provided the music and got the vocal text from my good friend and collaborator, Please check them out on my Facebook page and Enjoy :)

I am and should be working on some new ideas and collaborations which i am pretty excited about as i am writing for a female voice and i like the idea of the music being feminine and taking on both sides or universal which would be a better word... Also i am going to start working on ideas for Subject B, think its been way too long and should write some new instrumental music, thats all i can think of right now on what is happening with myself and my music, there will be more updates soon

Evolve or Die

E

Advert for Ghost Tape

Well this is a quick clip for my new album to be, "Ghost Tape" Its a new direction and sound from The Calm Project, this time looking at texture and voice rather than the orchestral sound of the past... Here i am finding the mood within the record and making it become alive within the sounds and textures i used on the record!

This is a exciting time for me as i will be performing solo as well as creating as much of the sounds live, this will be sample based but a new way of working on myself rather than being in a band, this October will also be the 1st time i have performed in over a year or more, which is scary yet i am itching to getting out there too so if you read this and are interested it will be here:

Follow me on this new path of new music....

Evolve or Die

E

Motivation

Okay Motivation where is it and where can i find it?

The idea was to edit and finished of vocals for all to hear, buy and exchange with friends family the world etc, yet am finding myself being so un-motivated to the point its crazy!

I think something has to change or i need inspiration to help me out, so anyone out there send me something music, art, film, video etc

Thank you to whom who ever listens

Remember EVOLVE OR DIE

E

The Beginning of the End or so to speak ?

Hello world universe and all the beings that live within it....

Its Blog time, you know the place where you run and listen too all the useless words i spout from my mouth!

WELL i think my project for Ghost Tape is done, a few adjustments and maybe some new vocals parts but its done i have written about 15 tracks but will be using only 10 on the album so to speak...

This series of sounds and music has been written from about feb-mar time to just last week, they have taken on a new sound for me trying to leave away the orchestral sounds, and instead use more percussive sounds and beats with different textures (think i got carried away with Harp), all in all the music is done, and i am hearing new sounds right now i want to concentrate on, more about that when i get to that state in time!

For now Ghosts or Ghost Tape, or even Ghosts in machines, who knows? The music i tried to make was a sound that has not been used before, clashing beats and textures with epic vocals, i found the whole experience a good one and have had some positive feedback from the those who listened. However I still don't think people get the music, or not want to get to know the music, making something that doesn't fit a genre or a style is looked at like a dirty whore you want to try but you don't in the end ;p, i think am falling into the trap of being a whore, musical scum you might say!

I personally think its my most POP set of music to date, but i see music as dead batteries being pulled apart my mechanical crows, from the last statement your thinking what the f??K? and you be right, but for one of the beats thats what i visualized and am not trying to be clever thats what i saw!

So who knows next? I will when its done put it out there, but due to my last effort will probably get zero response pretty much like my life in general, i live my art :(

Oh well maybe i will be seen as a musical genius once am dead!!!!!!

Evolve or die

E

When to say stop?

Okay Clearly no one listens and no one cares....

When do i say stop?

Bjork and Biophilia

Welcome come back blogger pick pickers, am sure your all been waiting with baited breath for my next blog well here it is ;p

Bjork my hero and one of the greatest inspirations out there musically and artistically, i love that someone like her can evolve and people listen and wait for her next release like it was the second coming, at this moment she is performing at Manchester as apart of a residency where she will be performing songs from her biophilia album as well as by the sounds of it the greatest gig you would ever see, this is excellent and am glad someone is aloud to evolve in music right now because its stale as fuck right now!

Okay my gripe, this new album is an App album and special features are only on devices who have apps or ipads and more advanced phone technology, this is great but what about the millions of people who don't have this equipment? Am hoping the CD (yes remember them) or Dvd will have something special for the fans who don't possess these technological advances!

On a suck up level i love the single Crystalline her voice is shining through as ever and is just amazing and i love the treated celesta sounding instrument, well done miss Bjork!

Okay another gripe, am not comparing myself to Bjork but if people are so interested in something different then why don't they listen to myself or explore other avenues where they can here new music, Hurts isn't new or clever!

Anyway Evolve or Die

E

Polaroid (Video and Stills)

Hello people of The Calm Project Blog reading brigade, i know your few but i love each and everyone of you X

This is an update of what am upto and the world that is Tha Calm Project, over the weekend i decided to put my creative bones into use and come up with a music video.

I recently wrote a song called Polaroid and wanted to create something special to show off this recent song, so i decided to make a video, as the song was called Polaroid i needed alot of pictures to create what is in my head, this is where Rebecca Tame Photography came in, she produced alsorts of shots for me to use within the video, using props and changing my general appearance using make up and glasses and props etc...

The result came out very well, using limited movie making software i put together all the images and changed the photo to suit the style of video in my head, this took many hours and computer failing for me to get the end result, but after 5 hours and the computer self shutting down at least a dozen it finally paid off!

And here is the result:

Lyrics For Ghost Tape songs

Ghosts....

These lives have faded away

Once was here now just disappears

Ghosts in the past spirits in the next

Gone from this plain arrive in the next

Save-Me....

The rain falls too the ground amongst the dirt and leaves

The puddles fill with your tears of the sadness of yesterday

Don't save me am not afraid

Crying into paper cups your lies become your words

Escaping the light and time remember who we will be

When your time is near the time to be near

Don't save me am not afraid

Crying into paper cups your lies become your words

Don't save me am not afraid

You put your life in the hands of the driver....

Slow down your moving too fast, collision this fatal crash

Pulled from the steal This life support pulled from the steal maybe your last

You put your life in the hands of the driver

Car crash collision break down fast

This airbag has failed this moment had last

Your life passes your eyes before you crash, this moment you live maybe your last

You put your life in the hands of the driver

The moment i live is the moment you die

Leave only footprints....

The shadows hide within ourselves revealing nothing too hide

The eyes see to much pain and misery we take ours and leave the rest behind

Leave only footprints leave nothing behind hide the evidence hide the lies

We take more than granted more than we choose

Nothing is free when we having nothing to lose

Will you hide me from this pain

Will you hide me from this life

Leave only footprints leave nothing behind hide the evidence hide the lies

Leave me behind

Breaking away the ice....

The flickering lights are talking

Of the angels they can have seen,

this cold breath is silent this cold breath is silent

Breaking away the ice

So set me free

My feet are walking its dark under foot

The night sky is stalking it blinds me with the flood

This cold breath is silent

Breaking away the ice

Don't look away i will find you

A new look Blog

This is my new look blog feel free to add and read and listen and all of the things that go with blogging :) E

The Forgotten

Well how are you viewers of the Calm Project Blog? Silence is your weapon and i feel its death!

Well for the people interested in knowing i am working on music, there should hopefully be 3 new songs coming soon, will these create an album worth of material, who knows at the moment the idea of people listening i find amusing but the people who do, my god i love you so much for listening and giving my music a chance!

I have been listening to some new music and i think thats influencing my new music, especially messing with different time signatures there will be one song i have done that, am still exploring music and everyday is a new surprise for me, i love music so much!

The other things in my life are working on music for a dance that involves dance music and gypsy music with hip hop beats, and rearranging some original tracks for dance.... The other exciting thing is a collaboration i Did with Little Weird Orchestras on a song called Routine, its different its original and i had great fun singing on this track, and might i say loved the mix on this track a lot, please check it out :) http://soundcloud.com/littleweirdorchestra/routine

Next on my agenda is doing all this Live, i have ideas that i would like to pursue and am excited about what the future holds for myself and my music, i think the idea of being a bit selfish is something i should look into as i really want to share my music with people and being strong and delivering something new is always bold and i applaud the musicians over the years who have brought about change, i wish one day people would see me in that light! Who knows they probably won't even shine the light in my direction :( No am not feeling sorry for myself its just a fact! We talk about change yet were all in the same place, now is it me or is that fucked up?

Evolve or die

E

Ghost Tape

Ghost Tape

New Photo by Rebecca Tame

Just putting this picture up because i love it, and hopefully more will come, its the new look that am going for, this was taken by Rebecca Tame

Follow link for more Photography :)

http://www.rebeccatamephotography.moonfruit.com/

A title within a title

Well its that time again, the barking mad rants of a musician who just wants to create and feel like am making a difference...

My mind is consuming so much in the past 2 weeks from moving out of Bath to the North and looking for a flat and work, i envy people who can make a living from music, as i don't seem to make a living from anything and am desperate to change that drastically!

Another problem is how i want to see my music performed and what i want next in the next installment of my saga/life, the music i am doing now feels so free, full of ideas and melody and beats that just get me in the mood to scream 'fuck me that's a beat' the challenge now is to translate all this live, i have mentioned before visuals would be cool and i have found ideas on what i want to do, but the music side is frightening me, as i want musicians involved but will they get what's inside my mind? the answer is who the fuck knows? that moment has to realise itself when am in a room with new people. Am feeling i want a dramatic maybe even Gothic to lean too, the music right now which i have labelled 'Ghost Tape' is switching to a more darker side, which i love and embrace as it works with my vocal and vision...

Oh and a small rant about stage school musicians, please fucking music business people look online and discover someone new who is talented and not posh or from a public school, music that is played by guitars doesn't always mean its good, music is symphonic it can be more than 6 strings of nothing!

OK rant over feelings spared maybe one day i will say something far more worse :P

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Collaboration and all things to do with Tape

Hello this is not april fools but many would call me the fool for writing this blog as it probably get as much attention as my music !

Anyway this is a update about whats happening and where i am in the world of music and The Calm Project, the new songs are still coming i should have 2 new tracks for you all to hear soon as possible, one will be available next week on monday via soundcloud, if your interested i put most of my music on soundcloud as its an easy platform to share and upload!

The new direction is still the ghost tape sessions, the music is coming and am already upto 6 new tracks and still have a head of endless ideas and possibilities!!!!!

The other thing i wanted to talk about are the collaborations am working on, i have worked with autumna and little weird orchestras with me adding vocals to their tracks, you can find them here follow on soundcloud, i will post links at a later date :)

Also some of my new tracks are to be worked with dance in a new collaboration so will keep you informed with what happens as its till early stages....

As for myself alot is happening right now such as moving and such forth...

Evolve or die

E

First day of spring

Hello hello hi salut bonjour, welcome back to The Calm Project blog, if you been following me you would know my ranting by now...

I just wanted to send out a quick blog about whats happening and where i am at with the music.

Ok been working on new music you can hear the new track on soundcloud right now called :Save Me- this new song is one of my favourites and cannot wait to perform this song live, i am working on more tracks but right now am trying to think about live setup and how i want to perform these songs, the new direction has given me many ideas and thoughts on how i want to be seen, this is more of a visual band and i would so love to have amazing graphics and visuals happening at my gig, this is what i want to work on more right now and then build up sounds and ideas as the gig/show progresses!

Keep yourself posted and i will be working on a Vblog soon, thats for those that watch my blogs

Evolve or die

E :)

The Writing is on the Wall

Ok where to start, how about 6 months ago, moving down to a new place and expecting everything to change and dreams come true, well some did and some didn't...

Made an album of orchestrated beauty and melody overload, the results were Colour in winds by The calm Project, I added extra tracks to Subject B and now working on something new!

The new sounds is all about mood and texture, running title is Ghost Tape and the music is taking sounds and instruments i haven't used much before and working them into a structure where music can be free and open, also creating beats that are my own and alittle odd, rather than the overly coppied beats and percussion you always hear!!!!!

The plan is that i will be in a new city and place soon, and to bring the sound of Ghost tape to a live experience, not sure how or what it will sound or be like, but its an exciting prospect and can't wait to get my hands dirty and begin work on the new music and sound!

I am working on tracks and will be adding to my soundcloud account as and when they would be ready, this in tern will hopefully produce an album/EP of music which will be my new venture....

Blogs and Vblogs will follow and will keep you updated with the various results

EVOLVE OR DIE

E :)

Let music be your guide and your friend for when you need comfort XX

Demo to do or what not to do?

Well from the hurried response from my last blog i am quickly getting another one out so you can all ignore, i sure start calling this my internal monologue rather than blog, anyway!

I have some demo's and would like opinions on them and what u think should change or keep etc, this is not because am ashamed its just i like working with people but right now thats not happening so putting my ideas out there might get some help and collabaration happening? Who knows? I certainly don't!

Anyway if there is anyone who would like to lend a hand and listen then by all means get in touch it would be great to hear what you think?

Right now am in two minds to put up the tracks as demos or wait till am happy with them first, this is my thought process and am not sure what to do next?

The new songs:

Suffocate, Falling, Breaking away the ice, And Ghosts, the latter is already up on soundcloud for you to hear, i do like that one and quiet pleased with the results on that track, just not sure about the others?

Anyway listen and love and EVOLVE OR DIE

E X

Listening isn't a crime ~~##

I am thinking of doing an experiment and was wondering who would like to get involved?

Basically i am looking for singers and want them to cover my tracks or add their own flavour to what i already have!

If your interested or know of singers who would like to be involved then please get in touch and let me know you can find me on

Twitter

Facebook

Myspace

Soundcloud

E :)

More of a tech thing

Hello people who listen...

Just wanted to ask for people who know a tech question i am struggling with mixing my tracks and would like a more warmer feel, bit more polished, for me my mixes sound unbalanced and rough sounding, is it equipment am using or is it down to the actual mixing of the tracks?

If anyone who reads this out there could help out it would be very cool as some nice pointers would be very welcome right now!

Or even still if anyone would like to mix the tracks then that would be cool too...

PLease get in touch and feedback would be great

Thanks

E

New Radiohead new direction

!st thing is 1st I have just downloaded the new album am on the 2nd track and i love it, they have been more experimental and i love this direction, i just wish it was easier for other bands to sell there music this way!

This will probably be album of the year, kinda wish there was more than 8 songs though, they have such an amazing back catalogue, but still its a new Radiohead album so good luck guys i love IT X

Fully aware no one gives a fuck

There i said it... the truth, yet always someone will copy what i do, how is that for justice?

Its happened in the past with certain people and is probably happening now, am i moaning too fuckin right i am, just seems peoples new songs sound like mine sometimes! Paranoid, no not really disappointed yes i am!

Anyway i know no one reads this so i can say what the fuck i want, most of the time this is just an internal monologue...

So here is too all the boring shit music, all you guitar players and singers who think they are original EVOLVE OR DIE

Signs of intelligent life

Ok welcome back people to whom who follow me and anyone new people who have found this page...

Right now am in the middle of writing and recording new music and i love the results, i have one done and about 4 more ideas too, should be pretty cool.

The idea or sound i am going for is very haunting and dark, i want to explore more mood and try new things with sound and texture i am hoping to have them up soon, and any comments are welcome... I am sure i will get some!

Also would like to say if you get a chance to see Black Swan, listen for the soundtrack, its amazing and deserves so much credit...

Just a short blog today, am also working on a few ideas for Subject B and will keep you posted of all what happens to me and my music

EVOLVE OR DIE

E

Exile on Brock street

Well its a new year, but am thinking what is actually new about new year, still in the same situation, wanting to escape where i live to somewhere more exciting and better for doing music, because Bath is certainly not the place for that!

I do long to be back in Liverpool, still not amazing for what i do, but at least i know the people around that area, out here i feel isolated and alienated from people i know and things that are going on.

Its a huge shame as i had lots of optimism for when i moved out and i wrote some great music at the time as well, which i am proud of, but i have no way of showing this off, the music scene or non music scene in Bath is awful, and Bristol, is way to big and i don't know where to start there either, the problem with the south is there not so friendly, cliche but true!

So right now i am in a state of exile, i am working on some music at the moment, a little different from what i have done before which is fun, am getting away of having orchestral instruments as the main theme and doing more experimental electronica, i am also involved in a small project as well, not giving details just yet, but its fun so am excited about that!

Also am little pissed off actualy extremely pissed off with the results of my last work, where no one gave a flying shit about what i done, i have always encouraged and been surpportive to people yet now i am thrown to the side of the road because it feels like no one cares, is this me moaning WELL I BIG FAT YES IT IS this shit hurts, i know i must take the rough with the smooth and i get that, but come on! give me something!

And with the current music scene, well fuck me sideways, this year has been disappointing and more, i expected alot out of music but am left empty and hollow!

I have not heard one good amazing record this year, most of the time they are ok, but not life changing, everyone and i mean everyone are playing it safe, i do hope that this year maybe someone like bjork will change things or radiohead will deliver something fantastic!

As for underground music, come on can we have some variation rather than DUMBstep and boring and bass! fuck me explore new music!

Flying lotus said in a tweet why do people send him music that sounds exactly like what he makes thats is just weird and wrong, experiment people music is there to be explored, why haven't we evolved yet?

Not leaving on a sour note, i must say i have heard some good music, one being the throw away's demo's of martin grech, an amazing talant and yet no one cares!

also lacunae a excellent glitchy trip hop music band, thanks marisa for that!

Well as for the rest of you Evolve or die

E